Why are you asking me what I believe? Why are you asking me what I'm 'trying to express'? What prevents you from seeing that Freemasonry and Masonry does not exist as a single/unified 'organization' or that the kind of "Freemasons" that came to the Americas in the mid-1800s weren't part of same kind of social/convivial club that existed in the 1500s to 1700s--i.e. architects'/stoneworkers' guilds (perhaps they taught philosophies as to city planning, urban development and the like to go along with it)? How about discussing or considering what is being 'expressed' through the videos links above? Do you have a vested interest in seeing to it that every truth or sound foundation of anything and everything worthwhile be destroyed, overturned, decimated or compromised? Do you like the idea of being a little mouse in the hands of PSYOPs kittens? Do you know that Washitaw is the name of an Indian nation?
P.S. There is a website called wellaware1.com you might like it. Lots of theories..with some, if any, substance--lots of things to get paranoid and wound up about though.