Originally Posted by
Michael Joseph
Friends, hell is between your two ears. I mean come on if materialistic gain did not hold a being, then who really cares, right? Said being would be about other wealth - internal and lasting. A state of perceived WANT drives a man or woman to NEED - and thus BEG. Nevertheless, I find or found in my journey that I too went thru anger, sadness and disgust before I came to realize that I was being manipulated OR allowing myself to be manipulated thru my DESIRE. It was then that I began to live a very simple life.
A woman begged me the other day appealing to my desire nature asking of me who I was going to vote for. I thought to tell her I don't vote, but then realized that would only stir up a battle of words that would produce no fruit. So I smiled and said "have a great day."
I am most careful about whom I will allow into my "circle of trust." I make them earn it - if they enter at all. I hold my trust most valuable and I will not lend it to a careless custodian. I often ask those who approach me "face to face" - please describe to me exactly what you want? In the end, I find that most have no idea how to answer this question as they have never deeply meditated upon this concern such that they might know when they have what they desire.
So I would challenge you Christopher Thomas - what do you want? This struggle you are engaging in now is the Age Long story of Moses. You have awoke to an inner voice which knows something is wrong and you desire deeply to leave this Worldly Bondage but in fact you do not know how. So you must trust. In fact the man of which Moses killed in Egypt was his Carnal Desire [Mind]. It was only then that he was able to see a bush that burned without ceasing.
So you are noticing external chains upon your mind and you think INCORRECTLY about the means. When you come to see that you hold the key, then the chains will fall from your Mental Slavery. So there is a process of resurrection. For Moses did not come out of Egypt overnight. And Egypt dear friend, is this Realm.
Do you want money? Do you desire lands? Do you wish to be king of an island that only you inhabit? Or do you wish a relationship with other beings? What concisely and precisely do you want?
As way of example, please don't say you want to be free. That is too vague. Free of what? And how will you know you are free? Who will tell you? Consider if you desire another to tell you that you are free - then you are not free. See indeed our heaven or our hell lies in each of us!
I hope I have helped you - I have intended to help, anyways.
Shalom,
MJ